Bedazzled

21 Oct

Have you ever put a positive spin on a bad situation? Not to be confused with making the best of a negative. The battered wife, for example, who will defend her abuser by rationalizing he didn’t beat her nearly as bad this time. We fail to remove ourselves from a bad environment because we have bedazzled it to a point we believe our own delusion.
Grandmother stood at the door patiently waiting for the family pup to return following his evening constitutional. The little girl asked why the puppy was outside but not the kitty. Grandma explained that the puppy went potty outside and it would be very unpleasant if he were to do that inside. Understanding dawned as the little girl remembered the cat had a special box for that purpose, “Oh right the kitty has a glitter box.”
The two words bear little similarity beyond rhyming and were not interchangeable One would never confuse glitter for litter. Yet there are those who try to glitter coat the negatives in their lives often attempting to entice us to follow.
Have you ever been fooled by the allure of fairy tale promises? That ‘too good to be true’ deal being offered. Most will admit that such offers rarely deliver. Hence the concept of “If it sounds too good to be true, then it is.” Unfortunately, too many people only realize after the fact that the job promotion, the corner office, the sweet deal–is nothing more than used kitty litter.
There is no glamorizing deceit. No amount of glitter should entice you to stay in a position, relationship or situation you know is unhealthy to your soul, spirit, mind or body. Don’t be blinded by the glitter…Live loving the journey seeking out the real thing.

Memories

19 Oct

There is appointed a time for all to die, yet it still manages to catch us by surprise or at the very least unprepared when those we love make that final journey. For those who have yet to experience the death of someone close to heart—there is no formula to suddenly know how to grieve. Death is inevitable, loss is loss and everyone grieves in their own way.
The woman lay so very near death. Her journey had been one with tremendous joy and love but not without struggle. Disease fought hard to rob her of her joy…and often succeeded. Yet love covers a multitude of wrong. Hiding in the shadow of the disease—a death sentence no one would ever choose if given the choice. Robbed of physical control she fought to maintain her grasp on every thought.
Privy to her thoughts for a period of time I consider myself blessed to have known her. To know she loved deeply, appreciated much and feared the end more than any other specter–not in the sense of the finality death brings but for the toll it would take on her family.
The time neared and it seemed as if her worst fear was now a reality…body and mind ravaged yet with the knowledge that her care was a heavy burden. She often prayed that her end would come quickly so as to lessen the duration for those she loved…it did not.
Her breathing shallow family members gathered to say good bye—thankful she is at least resting free of pain. The vigil begins. Though death was near, her end allowed for a respite. Jamaican’s call this “traveling” as a loved one lingers. The mind recalls every happy moment to relive it once more—to return at the completion full circle. Only then will body and soul part company to be reunited with those who have gone before. For her a husband, a son, parents long gone.
Socrates is quoted as saying “Death may be the greatest of all human blessings.” Yes, those who remain grieve for their loss but not for her release of pain. Her young great grandson—perhaps too young some might believe to grasp what was happening, is already well versed. He has been here before. His prayer a final farewell, “Jesus, God… thank you for taking my Grammy to Heaven to be with Grampy and thank you for leaving her ashes here for us.”
Ashes to ashes, Dust to Dust. The time of remembering shared. Memory stones containing ashes of the pair were incorporated into each stone. Stories were shared amid laughter as jazz tunes played in the background.
The celebration had come to a close…the plan was to launch lanterns set afire to rise, soaring on the winds releasing the grief of those who remained. One went soaring as if to lead the way and the earth behind…the second faltered —then burst into flame as if to say, “I will not be quenched. My fires will always remain in the hearts of loved ones.”
Yes, Grammy was feisty and stubborn. As I watched the lantern burn I was reminded of the fire that burned inside this woman. She left a legacy and wanted her friends and offspring to know she was still keeping an eye on them and so they better behave. I imagine on every birthday as candles are set ablaze, thoughts will turn to Grammy and smile.

I’ve Got a Secret

17 Oct

No I’m not old enough to remember the television game show, by that name, but the title seemed appropriate for my thoughts this morning. On the show…according to Wikepedia, contestants appeared before the panel and answered yes/no questions. The panelists tried to guess the secret the contestant was hiding. I’m afraid if this show were revisited today it would be more like a Jerry Springer Show than a chat with Katie Couric.
Why? Because we all hide secrets. Some are better at playing the game than others. Children are notorious for spilling the beans. Yet, I’m sure there are others who hide behind the position they hold. Over the years I have learned how to hide. Not physically hide as if in a game of ‘Hide and Seek’ but hide in plain sight. The problem then becomes how to end the game. Unfortunately there is a growing population of the unseen who choose to take their own lives rather than live in their current condition or social standing. Secrets keep us from forward motion…in a word, Stuck.
Are you feeling stuck? I hear from many who, like me, have let the game play out only to find there is no endgame. It’s a battle held within to make a conscience choice to either quit or continue the game. To do neither is to remain stuck. My secret is to shout to the world, “Hey, world, I’m ALIVE!” You have thrown hardship and negativity my way, stripped me naked and left me hanging…but I win. I choose life. Let me tell you living is much harder than giving up. It requires intentional choices and action.
I recently had the tag line of this blog tattooed on my back. The reminder to “Live loving the journey” reenforced my decision to live proactively–to live on purpose. So I pose the question to you…has your journey taken you to a place where you have become stuck? It may be a nice place–offering comfort and rest…yet at the same time confining and preventing you from moving forward. If you are not loving the journey you are on… you are not truly living it. Join with me and claim back your life. Tell the world you too are alive and have a purpose beyond simply existing for the benefit of others. Be passionate, embrace life and take action. Be strong my friend and truly live loving the journey you are on.

Turn it Around

17 Oct

Have you ever stopped to look at something simple only to discover on closer examination a new concept with tremendous depth from the observation? I have had many such observations but few as remarkable as that of the roll of bathroom tissue.
It seems there are many who battle over the “right” way to reload a roll of bathroom paper–personally I have never had a preference beyond the sincere hope that whomever used the last of the paper would in fact replace it with a fresh roll. However, there are “over the toppers” vying for supremacy against the ” down unders” dividing households.
A dear friends mother shared her logic at having a preference as to the direction of the paper. Individuals suffering with chronic pain are always on the lookout for ways to be more independent. She had discovered there is less of a struggle to reach the paper if it is dispensing from the top down and not the bottom up. Turning the roll around I found she was absolutely right. Changing the distance between roll and recipient made a huge difference. As one who struggles with muscle pain I could see how this could be the difference between self reliance and needing assistance at a particularly vulnerable and personal time.
So what is my point–after nearly a 3month hiatus from blogging I admit to being a bit rusty you didn’t really believe I had only bathroom habits on my mind did you? My point is this, as you continue on your journey, don’t be afraid to help those struggling, you may just learn something. Even if to you it may seem insignificant.
If you are currently struggling with a difficult issue, stop–try turning it around to see it from the opposite side. By changing your thinking it might surprise you and find the solution you were looking for. Doing something the same way over and over expecting different results is Einstein’s definition of insanity. After years of conditioning to respond only one way to certain life issues I now find it liberating to be responsible for my own decisions and actions.
My success or failure rests in my own hands. I am responsible for the outcome of those decisions. Yes, I do make poor choices from time to time–with no regrets. Every choice, every motive, every decision has had something to teach me. With each lesson I move closer to the me I was created to be.
Perhaps you are like me and your answer is waiting one step away and all you need to do is turn around. Change your viewpoint, look at life from another’s point of view. put a little distance between you and your troubles. Just keep moving and live loving the journey.

Approaching the Runway

16 Oct

While traveling by air recently I was–for the second time seated next to a licensed pilot. It was apparent the gentleman would have rather been flying his own plane as he explained a few of the nuances of flying to a young passenger seated between us. I listened as he expounded on such concepts as fuel consumption, navigation and time. While waiting on the tarmac he pointed out a row of lights on the runway ahead. A pilot approaching the runway can determine the their positioning by the color of the lights. If the plane was too close for a safe landing the lights would appear red. If the lights were white it indicated the plane was not at the correct angle. Only while flying at the right altitude and pitch would allow the pilot to see the lights as pink and insure a safe landing. When flying blind without benefit of instrument..the lights made it possible to land a plane in obscured weather conditions.
Wouldn’t life be easier if we could be assured of other pending miscalculations in time to correct our position? Our journey is made up of many course corrections over time. We choose to follow one path only to discover it leads to a dead end. We may start on a course of action and realize we lack the resources to complete the journey. Unanticipated delays and road blocks may force us to take an alternate route or abandon the trip altogether.
However, just like the well trained pilot, we too are able to observe what is going on around us. By keen observation we can make informed decisions that will enable us to avoid potential accidents on the horizon. It takes focusing on the right things and avoiding distractions to move us further down the path of life. Successfully navigating provides us the confidence we need to continue our journey.
My friend if your journey feels as if you are constantly flying blind with the path obscured look for the light ahead. Failing to count the cost may cause an energy crisis–providing opportunities to investigate alternative fuel choices… being unprepared to pay the price of poor decisions can be disastrous. It can also be the chance for other fellow travelers to come along side and lend a hand.
Where are you on your journey? Have you faced so many roadblocks you have stopped trying? Are you trying to move forward but running on empty? Maybe you are stuck in the current circumstances like a grounded aircraft or in a holding pattern forced to wait until the path ahead clears.
Maybe your have gotten detoured by circumstances. Don’t give up. Come in for a landing looking to the light of the world to direct you and gage your decent from there. Refuel, recharge and set a new flight plan as you live loving the journey.

The UN-Common Core of Learning

16 Oct

I visited my daughter during summer vacation and both my grand babes were sad to see the school year come to a close. I admit it did bring back memories of my own school days..of course things are very different in todays classrooms. No, I won’t regale them with the hardship of walking to school in freezing weather, up hill–BOTH ways. That was my dad’s generation.  Yet the changes due to technology has been a real difference.  as has the role of standarized cirriculum like Common Core.

So far the only thing that is common about said curriculum is the common dislike of it. My granddaughter who is a very good student, will complete the assignmnets as instructed–taking twice as long as if she completed the task the “old” way. Then spend the next 20 minutes ranting about Common Core. The one bright spot for her in regards to summer break was the absence of the standardized monster. However both my grand children seem to have excelled in spite of it.

I have to admit to wondering just what their educational system is trying to teach with some of the choices they have made. For example a school fund raiser had each family selling pies for the holidays. The incentive was for every child who sold 5 of the tasty desserts was the opportunity to “Pie the Principal”. My grandson was insenced at the disrespect it conjored in his 8 year old mind. The Principal was a nice man not deserving of being hit in the face with a pastry. Both he and his sister met the requirement for a lesser prize–however my grandson refused to attend the assembly as the Principal was indeed pelted with pies. He remained in the school office with at least 2 other staff members in protest. It earned him a reverse tardy on his Report Card but he didn’t care…he had stood by his convictions. I had to agree with my grandson–was the need for a successful fund raiser worth the disrespect ?
Don’t think me against fund raising for education. I have seen far more successful ventures with a win-win outcome. We bombard our children with more than enough examples of disrespect Adding curriculums that are more busy work than education is adding insult to the already overworked/underpaid job of many educators.
The new school year has begun and my grandson has decided there is no common sense in common core. He views the unnecessary work as redundant, busy work that he doesn’t need and refuses to do. After looking at the material I have to agree. So glad this is not my battle; win or lose for I would side with him every time. My journey continues, as I love each day loving the journey.

Hello, Operator?

7 Jul

Remember when as kids “telecommunication” meant 2 cans and a string? Today’s tots are more tech savvy at smart phone operation than many adults. I readily admit my 9 year old grandson is more adept with his tablet functions than I am with mine.

Communications has changed so drastically over the course of a generation. There are 2 former telephone operators living in my building. BOTH were of the “plug and cord connection era” and I am not speaking of a new plug and play device to load on your laptop. I imagine them more as the fictional “Sarah,” of Mayberry fame…you remember, the operator Sheriff Andy was always asking to connect him to the sheriff’s office or maybe Aunt Bea—or the satirical “Ernestine” with her snorts of laughter and witty remarks form “Laugh In” fame. Yes, things have changed.

Speaking with both of these women recently I discovered, one had the distinction of being the final operator to ask, “Number please” before the final switch to automation arrived in this small town. The other had been an operator in Ft Worth. She shared her account of working the switchboard the day President Kennedy was assassinated. It was a day she will never forget. Even with the added trunk line designated to the presidential entourage the operators could not keep up with the call demands that day and the days that followed.

These women, and others like them, were the backbone of all spoken information exchanges. They were the calm voice when a harried first time dad dialed O for operator and announced, “My wife is having a baby!” The voice of information before there was an “Information Super Highway”—a term now nearly archaic. If you were looking for someone and didn’t know the phone number you simply dialed the operator and asked for the information. Later, the 4-1-1 designator, saved a step in the process as the answering operator asked for the city and state you were calling and redirected the call.

We live in an increasingly impersonal society. Call just about any major company and the first auto-answer directs you to choose the language you prefer the auto prompts to spout. It’s frustrating to get caught in an auto response loop making it impossible to resolve your issue. Recently I made a call and nearly dropped the phone when a “live” operator answered. I shared my enthusiasm with her and she laughed…”I get that a lot”

Technology has improved many things…made our lives easier. Yet, I can’t help but wonder if we have done ourselves a disservice by removing the human factor. I will admit I need people around me at times but I’m just a guilty of fading into oblivion staring at my phone or tablet reading comments made. And yep, some of those are from friends living in my building and only an elevator ride away. Guess I will have to add some face time to my “To Do List” which, incidentally is located in my smart phone. I’m a work in progress traveling on this journey.

What are you Selling?

6 Jul

Attended my first auction and managed to be outbid on every item I wanted. This was probably a good thing as the proceeds were for a local need and very worthy cause. It being my first experience has of course become blog fodder.

I was fascinated by the barkers lyrical cadence as he grabbed the attention of the good folks looking to support the cause.

“Now wouldn’t you just love to have this bath combo? Smells good and hey it IS Saturday night.”

He pointed out the unique qualities in order to interest the buyers. Once the bidding started it was competitive as one out bid the next as if daring the others to up the bid.

In another room items were set up for a silent auction. Each item had a bid sheet where you wrote an amount and your name, etc. Checking back I noticed an item I had bid on had a competitor. No sooner had I upped my bid than the other bidder DOUBLED the bid. I laughed and conceded. She shared how a hard to shop for friend admired the item and would soon have a birthday. She was definitely claiming the item at any cost. And so the evening went. Wanting to do my part in supporting the cause I managed to claim an item and cheerfully paid the cashier at the auctions end.

Society today is doing a great job of “selling” us on a concept. Years ago it was ads for cigarettes—always showing young, fit and beautiful models pleasantly puffing away as if to imply you too could be this young looking fit and beautiful if only…(Of course we all know what a lie that was.) So I ask, what are you selling?

Perhaps you are putting yourself out there for the highest bidder…advertising only the attributes you believe are in demand. Hey, you smell good and it’s Saturday night. Maybe you are silently on the fringe hoping SOMEONE will notice you and make an offer. Are you on the shelf assuming there is no market for what you have to offer—afraid of rejection?

Overhearing a conversation about an item being heatedly bid on I had an epiphany. The item was a single pecan pie made by a friend’s mother-in-law. It sold for a price any caterer would salivate over. His remark, “It’s worth every penny too—though I get it free.”

You see value isn’t necessarily tied to the price tag. Whether the pies were lovingly prepared for a family gathering, funeral repast of a lost friend or donated to be sold to the highest bidder for a worthy cause… it was still the same pie.

All too often we find ourselves with a “finger I one too many pies” spreading our time, talents and energy on wasted causes. You have value—don’t sell yourself short. Don’t remain on the shelf or silently hoping to be noticed then sulk and complain you are alone.

Yes, you have value. Finding the right relationships means risk taking. Yes, there will be those who entice you into giving of yourself—only to dismiss you later when you fail to meet their expectations. Yes, there will be those who have no clue of your real value—and those who will do whatever it takes to appreciate your worth. You will always be you—as God created you to be. Regardless of the packaging, everyone has value to someone. My advice…wait for and go home with the right bidder. Live loving the journey.

SOLD!

6 Jul

The auctioneer stepped up to the podium. Spoke into the microphone, his hand and voice trembled,

“I have been blessed to serve this community and surrounding area for 50 years.”

He noted the many unknown faces and how there was a time he knew everyone who attended the sales…now only a few remained. It was time—this would be his final auction… the gavel and quick tongue was being handed off.

He began strong—quickly dispatching a few items. As the evening wore on his throat becoming dry he apologizes with a bit of levity.

“I think I may have swallowed a bug.”

His voice gravely at times, yet he pushed on bid after bid.

“Come on folks,” he encouraged. “This is a worthy cause…who will give me 50?”…paddles raised—“That’s more like it…50, now make it 60.”

On and on…interjecting bits of knowledge he had gleaned from years of knowing his people. Some I am sure employed his skills out of necessity in times of great need. He has witnessed people at their lowest but also at their most generous I am sure.

The crowd was thinning—“we’re losing ‘em.” He intones to a spotter…nearly through. Then I watched amazed. The final item left to sell…2 one pound bags of shelled pecans. Now, Texans love their pecans—but they love their people more. Higher and higher the bid rose. I’m not exactly sure of the figures as they flew fast and furious. I know one bid was $50 a bag. SOLD! Then remarkably the purchaser shouts…

“Sell ‘em again!”

He did! 3 times! Each purchaser paying more than the previous bid and returning them to the man to sell again. I’m not familiar with auctions to know if this was “normal” but from the reaction of the crowd I think not. Perhaps it was the desire to add more to the success of the overall fund raiser…or maybe it was to delay the end of an era. To give the man behind the microphone one last bang of the gavel, one final SOLD. Regardless the motivation, I found it remarkable.

My friends, wherever you may be in your journey—just beginning, coasting along, facing adversity or seeing the end in sight. I encourage you not to sell yourself short. You are worth more than the wealth of the world to your maker. Don’t squander opportunities and don’t give up too soon. Hang on and live loving the journey.

Wise investments never Disappoint

14 Jun

She stepped out of the elevator, hesitated a moment as her walking stick made contact with the tiled floor of the lobby. One couldn’t help but notice her striking appearance—from the wide brimmed hat atop her head to the modest pumps on her feet she was garbed completely in black, save the single feather adorning the hat. She looked stunning and I said as much. “Oh these are just clothes I collected from years of working. They are still perfectly fine so I can’t see any reason to discard them.” She remarked. “When you invest in quality it lasts.”

She was on her way to pay her last respects to a dearly departed friend. The funeral parlor wasn’t far and she intended to walk the block and a half in order to attend the service. “There aren’t many of us left.” She said. “I believe we may be a dying breed.” And she walked out of the building.

I pondered her remarks. Having only seen the woman a few times I recalled she was always so attired regardless of event—whether attending the monthly pot luck luncheon or heading to a doctor’s appointment, she had her hair styled and her lipstick smudge free. And had to admit there were few individuals I knew who paid attention to such detail as she.

When did we become so casual about everything? Not only the way we dress for a particular occasion—but the attitude regarding how one carries oneself in public. Images of the numerous pajama clad shoppers I witnessed at the local Wal-mart crossed my mind. Some how I couldn’t see the woman ever stepping outside her apartment so attired. Yet she voiced no criticism regarding the garb of anyone else.

Perhaps she is correct that she, firmly established as an octogenarian, is indeed, a dying breed. I find it sad to realize how few invest in quality anymore…not just in our attire but in relationships. So many today seem to thrive on a form of drama that only allows for disposable friendships—a “keep it casual” mindset of take what you can get and get out. To gravitate to solid relationships would require growth and accountability for the relationship to last. Many find the investment too great a cost.

I must admit to holding most individuals at arms length. Few friends are privy to what is closest to my heart or always on my mind and are able to hold me accountable. There are a select few followers of this blog that can read between the lines, but most have no clue as to who I am on the inside. There is a recurring thought in many of my entries—one of solitude, of not knowing where I “fit”. Perhaps I have been trying to fit into a casual group when what I desire is quality.

Invest in quality my friend, in yourself. You are worth it. It may surprise you how lasting an effect it can be. Yes, invest wisely and Live loving the journey.

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